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Drug Addiction Fact- 10 Need to know drug addiction facts.
This paragraph contains drug addiction facts on how to see if your child is on drugs. All the information below may vary depending on which drugs your child is using. For Example if your child is using heroin his pupils will be very small when he is high and if your child is using cocaine or acid his pupils will be over sized. You will also notice that your child will ether be more sleepy than normal or very more active than normal & your child will become overly calm or excessively aggressive. The drug addicted person will also display signs of suspicious behavior & they will try to avoid you as much as possible. Very often the activities they are the most interested in will go out the window. There will also be things that start to go missing out of your house like money, tools, TV’s, cell phones, computers and even food out the freezer. The things going missing will always be things that can be resold for cash & the first things to go will be things that are not used as much & when it starts to get very bad they will not care if you see it or not they will just take it. Drug addicts will be late 99% of the time that is if they even show up at all & when you do see them they usually just want money. They will also always have a 101 excuses & a story for everything. The more drugs they are using the more unbelievable the stories will get, so start listening to the voice inside you that tells you something is wrong & don’t be afraid to get your child tested even if you don’t have proof. Remember urine drug tests can always be cheated; instead just do a blood test so that you may know what is really going on!
This paragraph contains drug addiction facts on what drove your child to drugs. If you have tested your child & you know that he is using drugs, try to sit him/her down & talk to him/her about the problem. Just remember if your child is on drugs he or she is not your innocent little child anymore & he/she will do anything to get his/her next fix & remember its not your little child talking it is the drugs. Most kids can’t deal very well with emotions & that frustrates them because they don’t know how to deal with it & they don’t want to ask for advice ether because they will feel humiliated. Another big contributor to teenage drug addiction is if they were molested, raped or bullied in school. Family problems can also lead to drug abuse in teenagers for example parents that get divorced confuse the kids very much because they don’t understand it, they think that mommy or daddy don’t love us anymore so just sit them down and explain to them that mommy & daddy don’t get along any more and that its not there fault. Wealthy families mostly think that money fixes anything & if you just keep giving your child money & you don’t spend enough time with them they will get bored & most likely turn to drugs, to get some adventure in there lives. So spend some time with you child it won’t kill you. Never just talk to your child because sometimes you have to listen. 9 out of 10 times your child will only ask for help when it is almost too late that is if they even come & ask for help.
This paragraph contains drug addiction facts on what drugs your child might be using. There are so many different types of drugs but here is a list of the most common ones that most people use, from the weakest to the strongest.
Weed/Marijuana, Inhalants like lighter gas, glue or petrol, Ecstasy, LSD/Magic mushrooms, Cocaine, Prescription drugs/Central nervous system suppressants, Codeine based pain killers, Crack, Crystal meth/Tik, Heroin.
This paragraph contains drug addiction facts about what your child will do to get drugs. Your child will constantly be asking you for money till he/she sees that you are starting to ask questions. If your child has a job he will be stealing from work especially if he/she has access to the till & he/she will not stop till they get bust but then it is too late. If your child has access to a car he will also transport other drug addicts to the dealer for drugs & in some cases even take the dealer to go pick up stock from his supplier. Soon after they will start to sell the family’s possessions for there next fix & soon after that they will start to shop lift & they will also start to rob people like grab & run to support there drug habit. As there drug habit picks up they will even start to sell drugs to buy drugs, then they will start to rob dealers & believe me this is something that you don’t want your child to do because if a dealer catches your child they will kill him/her because they don’t take very lightly to loosing money! Some teenagers even go as far as selling there bodies for sex just to get some money for another fix. Believe me when I tell you that drugs take over your lives you don’t even think for yourself anymore they start thinking for you & that’s when you start knocking on deaths door!
This paragraph contains drug addiction facts about long term effects of drug use. These long term effects that I describe below are long term heroin effects. Bad Teeth: your teeth will start to rot & you will have inflammation of the gums. You will get so constipated that no matter what you use to try to soften your stomach it will not work at all. You will get the cold sweats when you don’t use for a day & if you have been using you will itch like crazy. You will also struggle with you immune system because it will just keep getting weaker & weaker. You can over dose at anytime & end up in a coma if you are lucky & if your not you will just die. You will also start having respiratory illnesses & muscular weakness.
You will defiantly have a reduced sexual capacity and long term impotency in men & menstrual disturbances in woman. You will have a major case of memory loss & loss of intellectual performance. You will also get a case of introversion & major depression. You will brake out with pustules all over your body & face. You will have a loss of appetite & it is so bad that when you check again you weigh less than 60 kg. If you did not use you will have insomnia so bad that if you sleep for a half an hour a night you would have slept a lot.
This paragraph contains drug addiction facts on why you child thinks it is OK to use drugs. When I was young you were an out cast if you were addicted to drugs but some how it has changed & now you are not cool if you are not using drug. According to modern day society it is normal & acceptable to be addicted. Your child also sees his friends using so he/she thinks it is acceptable & he knows that if he does not use with his friends he will loose them as friends. Another big contributor is television, your child sees people using drug & they start to think it is normal.
This paragraph contains drug addiction facts on what your influence is on your child & his drug use. Most parents promise there kids so many things & they never deliver, that really hurts your children because it feels to them that you forgot about them or just don’t care. A lot of parents never say that they are proud of there kids, Just remember that if your child doesn’t get acceptance at home they will look for it somewhere else. Wealthy parents normally think that money can fix anything. Some parents even think that there kids can smell that they love them, remember if you don’t tell your child that you love him/her they will not know it. If your kids cause trouble don’t get frustrated & try to ignore them, rather sit them down & talk to them about what they did wrong. In certain instances you need to give you child freedom of choice because you can’t always force them to do every thing you want them to do. Communication is the key to a good relationship that means not always talking you need to listen as well.
This paragraph contains drug addiction facts on what to do if your child is using drugs. You usually can’t get your child into a good rehab right away so rather give them the money for there drugs than letting them carry on stealing if you have the money, because if they end up in the prison system it will only make the drug problem worst. By giving them money to get there drugs you can still sort of control how much drugs they use by keeping them at home and taking them to get there drugs, but do not try to take away all the drugs right away till you can get them into a rehab; because if you had to take away all the drug it could cause them to run away or decide not to go to rehab, especially when they start with withdrawals. Remember the prison system will make the drug problem worst, it might even push you child to suicide.
This paragraph contains drug addiction facts on how to start helping you child to get off drugs. You as a parent has two options, option one is the rehab way or the home rehab way. The rehab way will be more costly & the home rehab way will be very hard work because you will have to watch your child 24/7. If you go the rehab way then remember that if you child used hard core drugs like heroin you will have to make sure you child goes to rehab for at least six months minimum. Remember in a rehab there are a lot of people that can influence you child to run away or to make a plan to get drug or even to use drugs with them. If you go the home rehab way then there are some prescription drugs that can help to just take the edge off for the first week, like physheptone, subetone or subetex. If you go the home rehab way then your child must have made up his mind that he/she wants to be clean for the rest of his/her life not only a week or a month. In rehab you never really know what is going on for example in my second rehab I was physically attacked daily by the people running the rehab. Most importantly if you go into rehab with the wrong attitude you will just be wasting your time & money because you will start using again very soon after you leave the rehab center.
Monday, December 27, 2010
Do Rehabs Really Help Addicts Part 3
Hi i will be telling you about the third rehab i attended. It was a South-African rehab and it was situated in the Limpopo Province between Ellisras and Vaalwater. I was in this rehab for about seven months.
Now let me tell you what happened in the time i spent in this establishment:
This rehab is a Christian rehab so they are all about Church services and we used to have cell group twice a week and a thing called Shabat on friday nights (Shabat means that: From Friday evening sunset till Saturday night sunset you have to relax, and your not allowed to do any strenuous work.) we used to have a three course meal and have a church service and praise and worship. And then Sunday morning services as well, during the week we all had work we needed to do so we used to work from about eight in the morning till about four five in the afternoon. We used to have breakfast before work, lunch at about twelve or one and then supper at about six or seven at night. In the beginning everybody used to be able to hang out together in the pool house but when the amount of people went up they gave the pool house to the girls and the guys had to hang out under a tree in the middle of the yard. The girls were not allowed under the tree and the guys we allowed in the pool house, the only way that you could get in the pool house if you were a guy was if you were dating one of the girls and the only way you were allowed to date one of the girls was if you had the owners blessing so if you did not have his blessing you were not allowed to date one of the girls. In the pool house there were nice chairs that you could sit on but under the tree there was not a single chair to sit on, so all the guys tried to hook up with a girls so that you could actually have a chair to sit on after you have been working the whole day. I really think that, that is not very fair if you ask me! So now you have a bit of background about what went on in this place I will start to tell you how my time there went!
When i got to this rehab i was still as high as a kite and i knew that i would start my withdrawal symptoms at about nine or ten that same night so i just wanted to eat and go to bed because i knew that i had a lot of sleep less nights ahead about two to three weeks worth. The first night i was there i was still sort of okay because i had used just before i signed in. I found out the next day that i would have seven days grace that i think is about fair if you have been using for a year or two but if you have been using for ten years and you had to use a gram of heroin before you can get out of bed in the morning seven days is a bit short because i used to have withdrawal symptoms for at least four weeks and i used to have insomnia for six to eight week where i used to sleep a max of one hour if i even slept at all! They used to give us medication for the withdrawal but you are very limited to the amount of medication that you used to get so the medication did not really work so well because they never really gave us the dose we needed to get. So eventually my seven days grace was over and i had to start working like everybody else and the jobs we had, well they were horrible for instance chopping clean used bricks, we had to chop off all the cement that was still stuck on them or we had to build walls because the farm we were staying at was not really done being built so we were actually building the place just because we were the first people to join this rehab center. The people that was well liked by the owner did not really have to do anything that they did not want to do. They also had the system were recovering junkies that have not even been clean for a year have power over the new arrivals and that i think is so stupid because everybody has there own issues that they need to be working on but now the older inmates have to "babysit" the newer inmates so in the end of the day when you leave rehab you have not worked on a single problem you had when you went in to rehab so 90 % of all the patients would just relapse as soon as they left!
In my seven months there i really got to know how everything works so i basically had free rains of this rehab because i knew when to do something and when not to do something so i was never really in trouble. I was in trouble a couple of times the reasons for me being in trouble was that in the first month i was there i tried to run away but i was not really sure where i was going so i got caught that time. The owner of this rehab told my parents that its basically imposable to run away because there was only one road out of this center on your way to the main road and this road is about eight kilometers to the main road. So i ran into the bush because i thought it would be harder to find me there, so i was running through the bush for about three or four hours till i got to the main road and i was just about ten kilometers away from the closest to and they spotted me and picked me up and took me back that was my first attempt and i tried to run with somebody. They took me back to the center and my punishment was that i will have to wash dishes for four weeks.
After my four weeks of washing dishes i was very tired and i just wanted to go home and go used drugs again. This time i went alone and i left at eleven at night this time it worked the only thing was that the main road was dead i think the whole night i only saw one or two cars so i had to walk the whole 48 kilometers to the next town called Vaalwater and i was through Vaalwater by six that morning. Just as i wanted to sit down and have a smoke a car pulled up next to me and the driver asked do you need a lift and where are you going so i said i would love a lift to Pretoria. He said well i am on my way to Johannesburg but i need to drive through Pretoria so i got in the car and about an hour later he dropped me in Pretoria about 5 kilometers away for Sunnyside I just started to walk towards town and someone else picked me up and dropped me right in front of my dealers house so i called my dealer and he gave me some drugs on debt then i went across the road to sunnypark shopping center toilet to go and use after i had finished using i sold my jacket just to get ten rand to get to one of my friends house and i spent the next two days there and during those two days we were just shoplifting all the time so that we could just keep using so after two days i went back hope and i spent a day there and the day after wards i went back to the rehab center. This time my punishment was a bit worst i got locked in the dog box for about three weeks the dog box was like a one bedroom flat that about fourteen people were sleeping in. The people that used to be locked up in the dog box used to get all the worst jobs in the center like cleaning toilets and dustbins, chopping bricks clean and chopping fire wood.
After my three weeks in the dog box I started to behave myself because I wanted to become a "leader" but I had some problems because not many of the leaders at that time liked me because i ran away and they could not catch me and they hated it.
After i had been there for about four months I met a girl there called Ane, she was also from Pretoria and she even got her drugs from the same dealer i used to buy from. We started talking and one day we decided that we want to start dating. We were dating for about a month, but most of the people started to treat her very badly so we decided that we are going to run away together, we set a date that we wanted to run away and we stocked up with juice and chocolates for the road. Before we left i made it very clear to this girl that I am not running away to go and use drugs I was running away to make a point. So that night at eleven I stuck my arm through her window and i shook her awake. Ane' was a small skinny chick so she fit trough the burglar bars so she go out and i had cut the fence already so we slipped trough the fence and we started walking on the way to Vaalwater again but this time it took very much longer that when i went alone because Ane' was scared and she could not walk as fast as i could so she slowed us down a bit. So this time we stopped at a road side resort because we herd that there are cars that come out there often that head to Pretoria so we waited and the first car that came out gave us a lift to Vaalwater then in Vaalwater we sold some clothes and we caught a taxi to the next town then in that town a man with a pick up gave us a lift to Warm-bath (Bella-Bella) and in Warm-bath we met a retired cop and he gave us a lift right to our front door. We only spent a day or two in Pretoria then her stepfather took us back again even though i had a very expensive camera with me we did not get any drugs in the time we were home. When we got back to the rehab center and all the other people saw us they all cheered me and her because we were not going to allow this place to suppress us just because they can. The point i tried to make by running away was that they will not stop us from being ourselves and that they will not treat us like slaves ether we are there to kick our drug addiction, we are not there to be walked over. So then after they searched us for drugs and after they did a drug test they saw we were clean but i still ended up in the bog box for two weeks for running away. After I got out the dog box I decided that i wanted to leave the rehab because they started to give me a lot of trouble because i was the only person that got it right to run away and not just ones i got away twice! If the people running this rehab was interested in my recovery rather than my parents money they might of been able to help me but most people that work in rehabs don't have an idea what they are doing and they don't really care ether!
If you come check my next blog i will be telling you what happened after myself and Ane' left this rehab!
In Loving Memory Of Ane' Smit Died (2010)
Now let me tell you what happened in the time i spent in this establishment:
This rehab is a Christian rehab so they are all about Church services and we used to have cell group twice a week and a thing called Shabat on friday nights (Shabat means that: From Friday evening sunset till Saturday night sunset you have to relax, and your not allowed to do any strenuous work.) we used to have a three course meal and have a church service and praise and worship. And then Sunday morning services as well, during the week we all had work we needed to do so we used to work from about eight in the morning till about four five in the afternoon. We used to have breakfast before work, lunch at about twelve or one and then supper at about six or seven at night. In the beginning everybody used to be able to hang out together in the pool house but when the amount of people went up they gave the pool house to the girls and the guys had to hang out under a tree in the middle of the yard. The girls were not allowed under the tree and the guys we allowed in the pool house, the only way that you could get in the pool house if you were a guy was if you were dating one of the girls and the only way you were allowed to date one of the girls was if you had the owners blessing so if you did not have his blessing you were not allowed to date one of the girls. In the pool house there were nice chairs that you could sit on but under the tree there was not a single chair to sit on, so all the guys tried to hook up with a girls so that you could actually have a chair to sit on after you have been working the whole day. I really think that, that is not very fair if you ask me! So now you have a bit of background about what went on in this place I will start to tell you how my time there went!
When i got to this rehab i was still as high as a kite and i knew that i would start my withdrawal symptoms at about nine or ten that same night so i just wanted to eat and go to bed because i knew that i had a lot of sleep less nights ahead about two to three weeks worth. The first night i was there i was still sort of okay because i had used just before i signed in. I found out the next day that i would have seven days grace that i think is about fair if you have been using for a year or two but if you have been using for ten years and you had to use a gram of heroin before you can get out of bed in the morning seven days is a bit short because i used to have withdrawal symptoms for at least four weeks and i used to have insomnia for six to eight week where i used to sleep a max of one hour if i even slept at all! They used to give us medication for the withdrawal but you are very limited to the amount of medication that you used to get so the medication did not really work so well because they never really gave us the dose we needed to get. So eventually my seven days grace was over and i had to start working like everybody else and the jobs we had, well they were horrible for instance chopping clean used bricks, we had to chop off all the cement that was still stuck on them or we had to build walls because the farm we were staying at was not really done being built so we were actually building the place just because we were the first people to join this rehab center. The people that was well liked by the owner did not really have to do anything that they did not want to do. They also had the system were recovering junkies that have not even been clean for a year have power over the new arrivals and that i think is so stupid because everybody has there own issues that they need to be working on but now the older inmates have to "babysit" the newer inmates so in the end of the day when you leave rehab you have not worked on a single problem you had when you went in to rehab so 90 % of all the patients would just relapse as soon as they left!
In my seven months there i really got to know how everything works so i basically had free rains of this rehab because i knew when to do something and when not to do something so i was never really in trouble. I was in trouble a couple of times the reasons for me being in trouble was that in the first month i was there i tried to run away but i was not really sure where i was going so i got caught that time. The owner of this rehab told my parents that its basically imposable to run away because there was only one road out of this center on your way to the main road and this road is about eight kilometers to the main road. So i ran into the bush because i thought it would be harder to find me there, so i was running through the bush for about three or four hours till i got to the main road and i was just about ten kilometers away from the closest to and they spotted me and picked me up and took me back that was my first attempt and i tried to run with somebody. They took me back to the center and my punishment was that i will have to wash dishes for four weeks.
After my four weeks of washing dishes i was very tired and i just wanted to go home and go used drugs again. This time i went alone and i left at eleven at night this time it worked the only thing was that the main road was dead i think the whole night i only saw one or two cars so i had to walk the whole 48 kilometers to the next town called Vaalwater and i was through Vaalwater by six that morning. Just as i wanted to sit down and have a smoke a car pulled up next to me and the driver asked do you need a lift and where are you going so i said i would love a lift to Pretoria. He said well i am on my way to Johannesburg but i need to drive through Pretoria so i got in the car and about an hour later he dropped me in Pretoria about 5 kilometers away for Sunnyside I just started to walk towards town and someone else picked me up and dropped me right in front of my dealers house so i called my dealer and he gave me some drugs on debt then i went across the road to sunnypark shopping center toilet to go and use after i had finished using i sold my jacket just to get ten rand to get to one of my friends house and i spent the next two days there and during those two days we were just shoplifting all the time so that we could just keep using so after two days i went back hope and i spent a day there and the day after wards i went back to the rehab center. This time my punishment was a bit worst i got locked in the dog box for about three weeks the dog box was like a one bedroom flat that about fourteen people were sleeping in. The people that used to be locked up in the dog box used to get all the worst jobs in the center like cleaning toilets and dustbins, chopping bricks clean and chopping fire wood.
After my three weeks in the dog box I started to behave myself because I wanted to become a "leader" but I had some problems because not many of the leaders at that time liked me because i ran away and they could not catch me and they hated it.
After i had been there for about four months I met a girl there called Ane, she was also from Pretoria and she even got her drugs from the same dealer i used to buy from. We started talking and one day we decided that we want to start dating. We were dating for about a month, but most of the people started to treat her very badly so we decided that we are going to run away together, we set a date that we wanted to run away and we stocked up with juice and chocolates for the road. Before we left i made it very clear to this girl that I am not running away to go and use drugs I was running away to make a point. So that night at eleven I stuck my arm through her window and i shook her awake. Ane' was a small skinny chick so she fit trough the burglar bars so she go out and i had cut the fence already so we slipped trough the fence and we started walking on the way to Vaalwater again but this time it took very much longer that when i went alone because Ane' was scared and she could not walk as fast as i could so she slowed us down a bit. So this time we stopped at a road side resort because we herd that there are cars that come out there often that head to Pretoria so we waited and the first car that came out gave us a lift to Vaalwater then in Vaalwater we sold some clothes and we caught a taxi to the next town then in that town a man with a pick up gave us a lift to Warm-bath (Bella-Bella) and in Warm-bath we met a retired cop and he gave us a lift right to our front door. We only spent a day or two in Pretoria then her stepfather took us back again even though i had a very expensive camera with me we did not get any drugs in the time we were home. When we got back to the rehab center and all the other people saw us they all cheered me and her because we were not going to allow this place to suppress us just because they can. The point i tried to make by running away was that they will not stop us from being ourselves and that they will not treat us like slaves ether we are there to kick our drug addiction, we are not there to be walked over. So then after they searched us for drugs and after they did a drug test they saw we were clean but i still ended up in the bog box for two weeks for running away. After I got out the dog box I decided that i wanted to leave the rehab because they started to give me a lot of trouble because i was the only person that got it right to run away and not just ones i got away twice! If the people running this rehab was interested in my recovery rather than my parents money they might of been able to help me but most people that work in rehabs don't have an idea what they are doing and they don't really care ether!
If you come check my next blog i will be telling you what happened after myself and Ane' left this rehab!
In Loving Memory Of Ane' Smit Died (2010)
Friday, December 17, 2010
Do Rehabs Really Help Addicts Part 2
Hi I will be talking about my second rehab that I attended today.
I will not name the name of this rehab for personal reasons but if you know anything about the toughest rehabs in South-Africa you will know exactly what I am talking about! Being in hell would be nicer than being in this hell hole of a place. It’s hot as hell in the summer and it snows in the winter. No matter if its 100 degrees Celsius or -100 degrees Celsius they make you work and if you don't work you don't eat, no matter if you are still going through withdrawal or if you are dieing from cancer they don't give a SHIT.
The program at this rehab consists of work, work and more yes you guessed it more work! The question I would like to ask them is how can you put a recovering junkie that has not even been clean for a year in charge of another recovering junkie that is twice his age???? Now you have a bit of back round about this place let me start to tell you about my time in this Demonic hell hole.
I had come out of my previous rehab and I was still addicted to heroin, crack and weed with out anybody knowing about it so I had a lot of freedom because every body thought I was clean. I was out of rehab for about six months before anybody started to notice that something was not right because every bodies money was going missing and things out the house was going missing (Electronics, Tools, Cell Phones, Money & even food out the freezer) and I was never at home I would leave at nine or ten in the morning and only return at ten or eleven at night, and the times I was home I would be falling asleep all the time or I would be moaning about pain because of withdrawals. So my mother started to check up on me to see what I was up to when I was not home and she used to go through my cupboards to see if I was hiding things. One day out of the blue when I got home my mother was waiting for me and she had a drug test in her hand, she wanted to test me so that is how I got bust eventually. That night my parents sat me down and they told me that they will be sending me to rehab again, I on the other hand was not very happy with that arrangement because I did not really want to stop abusing drugs but I agreed to it in the end just to get them off my back. So they made the arrangements for me to go!
I did not want to go so badly that I even considered to run away, in the end of the day I did not run away just to make my parents happy. A day or two later we got in the car and we drove that 1000KM or so to the Karoo rehabilitation center. All the way to the rehab I was so paranoid because of every thing I had heard about this place so I was using weed just smoking all the time because I started to withdraw form heroin as I had used the day before last, even before I went in to the center I smoked about three joints just to chill a bit; I really did not want to do this. So eventually I went in and my parents left. Then hell started, they searched my bags and signed me in, they told me that I would have three days of grace as they called it. grace means that for three days they would leave you be so you could just get over the worst withdrawal symptoms but the very next day they woke me at 05h00 to start cleaning the building and I only slept like 45min the night before, my withdrawal was so bad that I actually soiled my pants and I was puking the whole night. So I was wondering what happened about the three days of grace well guess what they only say that to set you family’s minds at ease. In other words three days of grace was a lie! This place would not even give you anything for sleeping or for the withdrawal pain its a "cold turkey" rehab, they don't even have a nurse there its just one of the inmates that hand out the pills to people that have to take prescription pills. I would like to know what they would do if somebody heart stopped because of withdrawals and it has happened before and its not that the hospital is just down the road ether, the hospital is about half an hours drive away. They had a nurse for a couple of days but the nurse ran away with one of the inmates! Another stupid thing was that the guys was not allowed to look or talk to the ladies and if you did they would send you to "C.I." that stands for correctional intervention and believe you me that you would pray to rather go to prison then to c.i. This is what happened in c.i. When I got there they locked me in a cage that is about 1x1x1meter and they put you in there with only your undies on & they give you a blanket but they wet it with water and jaysfluied no mater if its winter or summer and they give you a bucket to use as a toilet and all you get to eat if you lucky is less than a half a cup of soggy food ones a day and on top of all of that they play a tape with screeching sounds 24/7 so by the time you get out there your barking mad and you don't think striate anymore!
If you have ever worked with a recovering junkie you will know that they do not work with you if you have not won there trust or if they do not want to be clean! So at this place even if they don't like you or if you stand up for your self they will send you to c.i. just because they can and in c.i. if your not in the cage they make you do drills till you puke and then they keep going but the thing with me was I was playing ice hockey before I went there so I was very fit so they said to me they will make me puke and I laughed at them, they got irritated so they drilled the shit out of me and after every body was puking I was still going and they would just keep giving me more exercises and they could not get me to give up eventually five hours after we started the guy drilling us got so frustrated that he came running up to me and he kicked me in the ribs and he broke two or three ribs and just to spite him I got back up and started again. He could not handle that and he started to attack me and he broke two of my teeth, two blue eyes, broken nose & two or three broken ribs! The next day I asked them to go to the Dr because my teeth started to get infected then they would tell me there is a three day waiting period so I would wait, then three days later I would go ask again and I would see there is a new list for people who wants to see the Dr so then they would put my name on the list again and tell me it will be three days again and it carried on like that for about four or five weeks and at the end of the day I just left it. When I was supposed to get my first weekend where my family could come they cancels it because my eyes were still blue so they would not let my parents see me and wile all of this was happening they would not even let my parents phone me I could not even talk to them. So eventually when they let my family come and visit I talked to them about every thing that happened and they decided to let me go home rather than letting me get killed in this place. There was somebody that got killed in this rehab they got chained to a gate in there underwear in the middle of winter and when he could not hold himself up any more he got choked to death by the chain and the rehab just covered it up just like every thing else that they do that they are not allowed to do! Every night when I pray, I pray that not even my worst enemy ever has to go through what I went through! And once again after leaving this rehab i was not even clean for 12 hours before i was high as a kite!
I will be writing about my last rehab in the next week.
I will not name the name of this rehab for personal reasons but if you know anything about the toughest rehabs in South-Africa you will know exactly what I am talking about! Being in hell would be nicer than being in this hell hole of a place. It’s hot as hell in the summer and it snows in the winter. No matter if its 100 degrees Celsius or -100 degrees Celsius they make you work and if you don't work you don't eat, no matter if you are still going through withdrawal or if you are dieing from cancer they don't give a SHIT.
The program at this rehab consists of work, work and more yes you guessed it more work! The question I would like to ask them is how can you put a recovering junkie that has not even been clean for a year in charge of another recovering junkie that is twice his age???? Now you have a bit of back round about this place let me start to tell you about my time in this Demonic hell hole.
I had come out of my previous rehab and I was still addicted to heroin, crack and weed with out anybody knowing about it so I had a lot of freedom because every body thought I was clean. I was out of rehab for about six months before anybody started to notice that something was not right because every bodies money was going missing and things out the house was going missing (Electronics, Tools, Cell Phones, Money & even food out the freezer) and I was never at home I would leave at nine or ten in the morning and only return at ten or eleven at night, and the times I was home I would be falling asleep all the time or I would be moaning about pain because of withdrawals. So my mother started to check up on me to see what I was up to when I was not home and she used to go through my cupboards to see if I was hiding things. One day out of the blue when I got home my mother was waiting for me and she had a drug test in her hand, she wanted to test me so that is how I got bust eventually. That night my parents sat me down and they told me that they will be sending me to rehab again, I on the other hand was not very happy with that arrangement because I did not really want to stop abusing drugs but I agreed to it in the end just to get them off my back. So they made the arrangements for me to go!
I did not want to go so badly that I even considered to run away, in the end of the day I did not run away just to make my parents happy. A day or two later we got in the car and we drove that 1000KM or so to the Karoo rehabilitation center. All the way to the rehab I was so paranoid because of every thing I had heard about this place so I was using weed just smoking all the time because I started to withdraw form heroin as I had used the day before last, even before I went in to the center I smoked about three joints just to chill a bit; I really did not want to do this. So eventually I went in and my parents left. Then hell started, they searched my bags and signed me in, they told me that I would have three days of grace as they called it. grace means that for three days they would leave you be so you could just get over the worst withdrawal symptoms but the very next day they woke me at 05h00 to start cleaning the building and I only slept like 45min the night before, my withdrawal was so bad that I actually soiled my pants and I was puking the whole night. So I was wondering what happened about the three days of grace well guess what they only say that to set you family’s minds at ease. In other words three days of grace was a lie! This place would not even give you anything for sleeping or for the withdrawal pain its a "cold turkey" rehab, they don't even have a nurse there its just one of the inmates that hand out the pills to people that have to take prescription pills. I would like to know what they would do if somebody heart stopped because of withdrawals and it has happened before and its not that the hospital is just down the road ether, the hospital is about half an hours drive away. They had a nurse for a couple of days but the nurse ran away with one of the inmates! Another stupid thing was that the guys was not allowed to look or talk to the ladies and if you did they would send you to "C.I." that stands for correctional intervention and believe you me that you would pray to rather go to prison then to c.i. This is what happened in c.i. When I got there they locked me in a cage that is about 1x1x1meter and they put you in there with only your undies on & they give you a blanket but they wet it with water and jaysfluied no mater if its winter or summer and they give you a bucket to use as a toilet and all you get to eat if you lucky is less than a half a cup of soggy food ones a day and on top of all of that they play a tape with screeching sounds 24/7 so by the time you get out there your barking mad and you don't think striate anymore!
If you have ever worked with a recovering junkie you will know that they do not work with you if you have not won there trust or if they do not want to be clean! So at this place even if they don't like you or if you stand up for your self they will send you to c.i. just because they can and in c.i. if your not in the cage they make you do drills till you puke and then they keep going but the thing with me was I was playing ice hockey before I went there so I was very fit so they said to me they will make me puke and I laughed at them, they got irritated so they drilled the shit out of me and after every body was puking I was still going and they would just keep giving me more exercises and they could not get me to give up eventually five hours after we started the guy drilling us got so frustrated that he came running up to me and he kicked me in the ribs and he broke two or three ribs and just to spite him I got back up and started again. He could not handle that and he started to attack me and he broke two of my teeth, two blue eyes, broken nose & two or three broken ribs! The next day I asked them to go to the Dr because my teeth started to get infected then they would tell me there is a three day waiting period so I would wait, then three days later I would go ask again and I would see there is a new list for people who wants to see the Dr so then they would put my name on the list again and tell me it will be three days again and it carried on like that for about four or five weeks and at the end of the day I just left it. When I was supposed to get my first weekend where my family could come they cancels it because my eyes were still blue so they would not let my parents see me and wile all of this was happening they would not even let my parents phone me I could not even talk to them. So eventually when they let my family come and visit I talked to them about every thing that happened and they decided to let me go home rather than letting me get killed in this place. There was somebody that got killed in this rehab they got chained to a gate in there underwear in the middle of winter and when he could not hold himself up any more he got choked to death by the chain and the rehab just covered it up just like every thing else that they do that they are not allowed to do! Every night when I pray, I pray that not even my worst enemy ever has to go through what I went through! And once again after leaving this rehab i was not even clean for 12 hours before i was high as a kite!
I will be writing about my last rehab in the next week.
Tuesday, December 14, 2010
Do Rehabs Realy Help Addicts
Hi Dean here the reason i am writing this post is because i was in three different rehabs and not one of them ever worked for me! My first rehab was only a six week program but it was more like signing in to a hotel because if you did not feel like doing anything you could stay in bed they would bring your food to you.
I only went through one or two days of withdrawals in the six weeks i was there because the day i went in i met the two (Bad Apples) in there and they used to jump the fence at night and go to the dealer so every time they used i used so again for the first week and a half i was there i was not clean. Then they got bust with Heroin and they were kicked out of the center. So the day they left was the first day i had withdrawal symptoms. In this center if you have been there for three weeks you could carry money on yourself again for things like smokes and snacks, so i started by asking other people in the center for some cash then i used to phone my friends then they would bring me some drugs. When all the people in the rehab started getting tiered of giving me money all the time i had been there for about three weeks, so i started carrying money around so i used that to get my fix from my friends.
When that money ran out i saw my opportunity, there was some one in the center that had a laptop so i took the laptop to get my fix for the rest of the time i was there. All the time i was there i was using Heroin, Crack & Marijuana! Every time they tested me i had a trick so that the test did not pick up that i had been using and my trick worked like a bomb. Right in the last couple of days i was there they bust my one friend smoking Marijuana and he split on me, that was the only way that they found out that i used in six weeks.
It just shows you how stupid people that run rehabs are that they cant even see when someone is so high on Heroin, Crack & Marijuana that they falling asleep and then so paranoid that i was eating my nails till the blood ran and i was stinking from the Marijuana.
90% of people who work in rehabs don't have a clue about drugs!!!!!!!!
This Post was all about my first rehab so come check again later in the week or next for the next two rehab stories they only get more shocking!
I only went through one or two days of withdrawals in the six weeks i was there because the day i went in i met the two (Bad Apples) in there and they used to jump the fence at night and go to the dealer so every time they used i used so again for the first week and a half i was there i was not clean. Then they got bust with Heroin and they were kicked out of the center. So the day they left was the first day i had withdrawal symptoms. In this center if you have been there for three weeks you could carry money on yourself again for things like smokes and snacks, so i started by asking other people in the center for some cash then i used to phone my friends then they would bring me some drugs. When all the people in the rehab started getting tiered of giving me money all the time i had been there for about three weeks, so i started carrying money around so i used that to get my fix from my friends.
When that money ran out i saw my opportunity, there was some one in the center that had a laptop so i took the laptop to get my fix for the rest of the time i was there. All the time i was there i was using Heroin, Crack & Marijuana! Every time they tested me i had a trick so that the test did not pick up that i had been using and my trick worked like a bomb. Right in the last couple of days i was there they bust my one friend smoking Marijuana and he split on me, that was the only way that they found out that i used in six weeks.
It just shows you how stupid people that run rehabs are that they cant even see when someone is so high on Heroin, Crack & Marijuana that they falling asleep and then so paranoid that i was eating my nails till the blood ran and i was stinking from the Marijuana.
90% of people who work in rehabs don't have a clue about drugs!!!!!!!!
This Post was all about my first rehab so come check again later in the week or next for the next two rehab stories they only get more shocking!
Tuesday, December 7, 2010
Intro to Dean Life
Hi my name is Dean and i created this blog to give you some of my insights. I was a HEROIN&CRACK addict for more than 10 years of my life and i managed to kick my addiction! I have been sober now for more than 2 years, and believe me when i tell you that addiction was the hardest thing i have faced in my 24 years on this earth! In the 10 years i was addicted i have been to 3 different rehab centers around South-Africa, from the best to the wurst. The best being like 5star hotels and the wurst being wurst than prison-belief me you do not want to spend a year or two of your life in a hell whole like that because you only come out there wurst than when you went in! I will still tell u all about that one day!
Me and my colleague realized that we have a wealth of knowledge on this subject and both of us have beat drug addiction, so we decided to create a website to help other people suffering from the same problem we had so we created the website called Http://www.recoveringjunkie.com to pass on all the knowledge that we have gathered over more than 30 years and we know if your really interested in beating drug addiction! We can help you so just go on to our site and subscribe to the free 10 week mini coarse or write to us at info@recoveringjunkie.com . See u there!
Me and my colleague realized that we have a wealth of knowledge on this subject and both of us have beat drug addiction, so we decided to create a website to help other people suffering from the same problem we had so we created the website called Http://www.recoveringjunkie.com to pass on all the knowledge that we have gathered over more than 30 years and we know if your really interested in beating drug addiction! We can help you so just go on to our site and subscribe to the free 10 week mini coarse or write to us at info@recoveringjunkie.com . See u there!
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